Lazy Sunday

Before babies, our weekends included breakfast in bed and lounging around watching movies. Now, things aren't quite so relaxed. However, we did get to spend part of this past Sunday morning in bed. The Boys love their boppy pillows, so warm and cozy.

Scream and Shout

Bath time at the Bridges' house continues to change and evolve with each and every occurrence. It started out with blood curdling screams, then to whimpers and now they just tolerate it. Their least favorite part of bath time is my favorite part; I love to rub baby lotion all over their little flawless bodies. This, of course, is when they choose to scream the loudest! Here are a couple of bath time videos we took on December 28, 2010. They still fit in our bathroom sink!

Guilt –\ˈgilt\

It is a small innocent word … just 5 little letters, but it carries such a big stick.

Merriam-Webster defines Guilt as a: the state of one who has committed an offense especially consciously b: feelings of culpability especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy.

Guilt comes in many shapes and forms and can sneak up on you when you least expect it.

I realize I’m only two months into this whole Mommy Business, but guilt has already set in.

- I feel guilty that instead of spending quality time with my children, I find myself multitasking. (ie folding clothes while sitting on the floor playing with the kiddos).

- I feel guilty when I drop them off at school for strangers to care for them.

- I feel guilty that it feels good to be at work instead of at home.

- I feel guilty when I go to Target. I feel like I should be at home soaking up every moment with them, all while needing a break at the same time.

- I feel guilty that I feel relieved to have help feeding the boys. By the 16 bottle I need a break, but then isn't it my job to love, care and nurture my children!?!?

Now for the big one:
I have the ability and opportunity to provide the best possible nourishment to my children. It is something they can’t get anywhere else and that no one else can give them. However it takes a lot of time and work (OK, not like digging ditches or anything but still seems like work) to make this happen. But every time I hook up to the pump my mood changes. Matter of fact I dread it. I’ve considered many times to give it up but ending it means they will never get it again. There is that guilt again!

I know guilt will never leave my side. It is here until the end.

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I have so much to update and will hate myself it I don't get it done because in a year when I read back through these posts I will be sad that I missed documenting Month 2 of their life.

With that…more to come!

First Day of School Picture

I have a lot to update, but in the meantime I wanted to post a picture of my Boys before their first day of "School". Well, not really school, rather Mother's Day Out. They've gotten so big!!

Not the best quality picture as it was taken with my phone.

Changes

Thirty-three days ago my life forever changed. Before I could hop in my car and drive to the grocery store without thinking a thing of it. Need toothpaste, I'll go get it. We attended all of the Thunder games. I could go to the gym whenever I pleased and sleep, showering and makeup were never considered a luxury.

Now in one day I change roughly 16 diapers, wash, fill and feed 16 bottles, use the big blue bulb to remove green stuff from little tiny nasal passages, do massive amounts of laundry and after a sleepless night and a long day of fussy babies I hope to have a smile on my face when Trent gets home from work.

BUT...when I look at these faces it makes everything all worth it. I never knew I could love something so much. I love to kiss their tiny cheeks, their tiny toes and their little button noses. My heart melts when I feed them a bottle and they look up at me with those big eyes that tell me they feel safe. Oh how I love these boys.

In a few weeks I will return to work; I will so miss those 16 bottles and 16 diaper changes.

* The picture above was taken when they were 10 days old. Brooks is on the left and Jackson is on the right.

Christmas Shopping

I can't believe Christmas is just a few weeks away. I've done a little shopping, but have more to do. This post is just a reminder that Kathleen's Etsy shop has been updated with lots of fabulous handmade items and all proceeds benefit their adoption fund.

What a great way to get some Christmas shopping done and to help them in their quest, which will give Jackson and Brooks another cousin.

Click here to see all her newly added items.

She made us the stockings and they are adorable!

Got Milk?

Here is a video Trent took of Jackson rooting around...all he could only find was his brothers head.

Pretty cute!




They went to the doctor yesterday and in 10 days they each gained 1 lb. Jackson now weighs 6 lbs 6 oz and Brooks weighs 6 lbs 3 oz. Way to GROW Boys!